Each day the sun rises, and the sun also sets. But no two days are ever the same. Here, we muse about the urban landscape, things that grow, and the way the moon hovers on this night. Because no day will ever be just like this one again.
Sunday, August 4, 2013
The River Finds its Way
Thursday, March 21, 2013
The Persistence of Geese
Suddenly, in a day, everything has changed amongst the birds.
Winter was a time to hunker down.
Enormous flocks of Canada geese wintered with us, slumbering en masse at night on the iced lake, by day grubbing voraciously through a mantle of snow to pluck victuals from the turf. In their wake, a cacophony of churned earth and webbed foot prints.
Of a January vineyard morning, I would crunch through diamond-crusted snow before sunrise.
Coming to a small patch of open water, and the flotilla of ice where our swans slumber, I feel like I've entered a secret avian dream world: All is peace and crystalline beauty.
The swans allow a small trusted bevy of geese to sleep amongst them on their floating bed chamber, the rest banished to the lakeshore with the ducks. How very wise, I think, to have these squawky sentries close at hand during the vulnerable silent hours.
During these peaceful winter mornings, I observe that our ducks never sleep on the ice, except when there is a downy blanket of snow. On a snowy January morning, I arrive at sunrise to find our entire duck colony asleep on snowy ice. As the sun rises, they arise and begin chattering amongst themselves, waddling busily on the ice. (I think I could be content to watch ducks walk on ice all day.)
But change is afoot in the vineyard, the quickening of the year.
Skunk cabbage shoots rise steamily from the creekbed. Gliding raptors, aloft in a sky that is suddenly cerulean, dangle entrails of branches. On a rainy morning I notice our pair of mute swans display a newfound interest in golden willow branches that litter the lawn.
These quickening days: Behold! And turn your eyes to the March firmament:
To the South, golden rays, impossible blue skies, fluffy white clouds.
Northward, impending wintry nebula, dark and foreboding.
Snow flurries mix with drizzle and warmth.
This fleeting season, marked by the mysterious arrival of impossibly vivid ducks, with crimson necks.
Raw, windswept March, when you experience all of the seasons in just one day. The mysterious crimson ducks flit about on a choppy windswept lake for a just a few days, then disappear as quickly as the whiteout flurries that materialize to displace a mid-afternoon sliver of golden sun and clear blue sky.
The day of the crimson ducks marked a noticable change in avian behavior.
All winter everyone got along, but today our territorial male swan was bound and determined to keep a pair of Canada geese from nesting under a cherry tree. I could swear they are the exact same pair that nested here last year, under a dead pine tree. I christened them Irmgard and Heinrich, in homage to a certain Germanic persistence they seemed to possess.
As the days lengthen, gone are the large colonies of ducks who gobbled at the swan chow bowl on frigid winter days.
Gone the riotous gaggle of geese who slumbered on the ice by night and rooted riotously through vineyard rows for daytime grub.
Gone the marauding robins who came out of nowhere to strip to bare twigs a crabapple tree which had somehow held its fruit through Christmas.
On these transitory lion/lamb March days, the birds have all paired off:
The swans daub a nest from mud and leaves and willow branches in a swampy finger of the lake.
An iridescent mallard and his handsome brown speckled bride toddle about the shrubbery at sunrise, looking for a place where in a few weeks she may deposit her eggs.
A pair of elegant mourning doves coo beside a decaying old grape press in the rose bushes, seemingly grateful for the now bare earth on which to roost.
There is something to be said for a day tending a vineyard.
Even if it is a day that starts with pelting sleet and a glaze of ice. Especially if it is a day during that magic month when the year quickens perceptibly, and avian behavior takes a marked seasonal turn. An entire complex avian world goes about its seasons on the shore of this lake, and I feel privileged to be here to watch it unfold.
Throughout it all, in every season, a solitary Great Blue Heron swoops overhead, knowingly.
And I kind of get the feeling the heron is orchestrating the whole thing.
But as exciting as it is, to perceive each day advance into a new season, and sense a new warmth, and a hopeful stirring amongst the paired off water fowl, I find myself missing just a little bit those solitary winter days, and magic sunrise mornings, when an ever-changing cast of migratory waterfowl bedded down peaceably on a pallet of ice.
And I can't get past the persistence of these geese, this single pair who have staked their claim in hostile terrain.
Last year they built a nest under a dead pine tree. A tree crew felled the pine carcass, and ground it to mulch.
But Irmgard and Heinrich were back the next day, building a new nest atop the wood chips.
This year, after the rest of the wintering Canadian horde has departed, they have their sights on a gnarled old cherry tree. The grub around its exposed roots, roost in various positions at the base of its woodpecker-dimpled trunk, taste a few shriveled cherries that have fallen to the grass. (They seem to be practically measuring the place for draperies.)
Periodically, our resident male swan takes a break from nest building, and chases the geese off the water, with impossibly powerful strokes of his enormous webbed feet.
He overtakes them near the shore, and they retreat to the cherry tree.
The swan hurumphs himself out of the water, and charges toward them with his ungainly, but still frightening (and surprisingly speedy) gait. Geese and swan charge through pine bowers and vineyard rows, but the geese are fleet on land, and the swan seems to know his strengths, so he never advances too far from the lake.
This goes on for hours, a pursuit by water, by air, and by land.
These placid geese seem mostly nonplussed, and the swan seems to realize he is mostly just making a point.
Eventually the geese will lay three or four large ovoid eggs in a nest of pine needles and down, at the base of the cherry tree. The swan will continue his aggression, ceasing sometime in June when his own mate is off her twiggy willow throne, and order will be restored to the peaceable avian kingdom.
Then the geese will sun themselves with the swans on the grassy lake shore on languid summer afternoons, the ducks hunkered and chortling amongst them, as they await the arrival of the winter hordes, and perhaps gossip just a little, about the mysterious crimson ducks, who came for just a few fleeting March days.
Tuesday, December 25, 2012
Crystal Palaces
Snow changes things. Grass, for many weeks a sodden mire, is now fleece topped, with just a few mud patches visible. Gravestones and idle automobiles and inert things made of colder stuff have acquired a more impressive wintry cap.
Things, finally, look just as they should on these shortest days of the year, when the noontime sun blazes no warmer than the moon.
On the old public square, the Congregational church heaves a snow-dusted spire of dull green patina toward a bright December sky. Across the Christmas tree-studded median, in the white marble-framed picture window of the public library, St. Nick waves incessantly to quiescent Victorian carolers.
In the parking lot of the former Sparkle Market on the old Indian portage trail, a few brittle Christmas trees linger, forlorn, under strings of bare incandescent bulbs.
Over on Church Square, the giant hackberry tree has shed all of its leaves.
In the Methodist church, handbells and carols and ethereal melodies from a loaner Steinway piano, shrouded in Poinsettias presented in honor of the birth of Christ, waft out the wooden doors and into the city beyond. Mingling with the aroma of Schwebel's bread baking, these are the sights and sounds and fragrances of December, in my old hometown.
These could be the sights and sounds of any hometown in the temperate Eastern United States, perhaps in New England or anywhere across the Alleghenies where transplanted Yankees built Greek Revival churches on village greens over which elm trees would eventually tower, and then fall.
But there is something different here, hidden, unless you know where to find it:
Below the Vaughn Mansion.
Across from the fire station.
Behind the Sheraton Hotel where a great water powered mill once churned industrial turbines.
Underneath concrete pilings supporting the ceaseless whir of interstate traffic.
Shrouded by scrub brush and Ailanthus trees, here, our hidden river carves its knurly course, imperceptibly deeper.
Our Main Street was called Front Street, because it fronted this vital watery course, although by the time of my childhood, you'd be hard pressed to know it, as automobile dealerships, tool and die shops, a bowling alley, and cocktail lounges fronted this tawdry avenue.
Even still, there was the stub of an old bridge, called the Prospect Street bridge, which jutted out over where the river began its rapid descent and dramatic curve north, and on winter days we would trundle over to go look at icicles: such a simple winter pleasure.
Last winter our town kicked off a year-long Bicentennial celebration, with a Winter Festival downtown. There was ice skating on a refrigerated rink. Ice carving contests. The ceremonial tapping of a specially brewed Bicentennial Ale.
All is festive and bright, but on a whim, I decide to walk a block south, to see if the icicles are still there.
While hundreds revel within earshot, mine are the only footsteps on the wooden boardwalk that descends below the tree line, down a sandstone chasm the old timers called "The Glens."
Descending deeper, the drone of traffic disappears, until all you hear is the crooked river dancing briskly on its bed of smooth gray shale.
Gazing up, walls of Sharon Conglomerate sandstone, studded with quartz pebbles, range in color from gray to tawny to gold to black. And everywhere that water drips, at every crevice and pore, a magnificent crystalline spear, the perfect inversion of the Congregational church's spire, points not toward the crevice of blue sky above, but toward sparkling brisk waters below.
This unusually bright winter afternoon is almost over, and rays of the expiring sun illumine the icicles of the Eastern gorge wall. I pause to admire the illumination of icicles subtly colored by minerals seeping through from some deep source.
I look ahead to where the river turns course and disappears, at a point where a huge boulder, covered in Canadian hemlock and mosses and ferns that should only grow in more northerly climes, marks the transition of the Cuyahoga from south flowing river to one that runs north.
And suddenly this winter idyll is interrupted, as one icicle after another crashes dramatically into swift flowing water: just as the winter sun is about to set, it has warmed the icicles to their perfect breaking point.
On this winter afternoon, I am so grateful to know this secret place where the river bends, so thankful to have been bundled up for those childhood sojourns where we went seeking majestic places in our own backyard.
Decades later, I learn that in Victorian times excursion trains brought thousands each day to these very Highbridge Glens, where they descended picturesque staircases to reach a riverside promenade, crossed gurgling rapids on swinging bridges, and sought out caverns and grottoes to which they gave fantastical names.
In the winter, they called these very cavern walls, just a few blocks from my parents house, the Crystal Palace.
This quirky, hidden river is the living soul of my old hometown, the reason people settled in these unlikely parts.
The simple pleasure of walking out on a bridge, to look at icicles, is one of many simple winter pleasures that I fondly recall on these darkest days of the year, whenever the first snow falls:
Being bundled up in more layers than seems possible, feet encased in three pairs of socks, bread bags, and rubber galoshes, to be pulled by Dad on a sled down the middle of Seventh Street. Tim falls backward, so immobilized by snow pants and parka, that he is a helpless turtle on his back.
Donning double-bladed skates to ice skate clumsily on chunky ice at the Gorge, where water was impounded to flood a field in a Depression-era ice rink, and the best part was singing damp mittens on the rusty iron warming stove.
Epic December journeys to Lancaster, Ohio, the Plymouth Volare station wagon scented with Thermos-warmed coffee, and a highlight was stopping at an old country store at the junction of state route 23, to see the purported last black bear of the Ohio frontier, living out his desolate golden years in an odoriferous cage.
Decorating the Christmas tree to tunes from old scratchy records spinning carols, on Mom's maple cabinet stereo, no homemade ornament to homely to earn a place on the tree.
Dad pulling a volume of the Best Loved Poems of the American People from the overflowing bookshelves, and we sat, enthralled, as just his words and flawless narration brought the saga of Casey, and the despair of the denizens of Mudville, to vivid life.
These winter memories are the crooked knurly river of my memory. They are always there, like our silent hidden river, and I am so fortunate to be able to call them up, to have them enliven every Christmas season and remind me of simple pleasures which form the craggy sandstone bedrock of who I am.
We sought out the icicles.
We skated on rutted ice.
We made a sledding hill out of an almost imperceptible backyard slope.
These memories and experiences are the Crystal Palaces, the great treasures that so many people seek, in all the wrong places, because they don't know that the most amazing things are often the simplest ones, and that sometimes it takes a welcome cloak of muffling snow, to blot out unnecessary distractions, and to inspire the introspection that these darkest days of the year require, in order to to find the hidden river, and the crystal palaces, that were right there all along.
Monday, November 12, 2012
A Memory of Walnut Trees
Certain older people of my youth knew where the good trees were.
For my grandmother in Southern Ohio, the hickory trees halfway up the slope of Mt. Pleasant merited a journey. Clutching brown paper Kroger bags we debark from the brick path behind her house, down the alley, up a crumbling and slightly mysterious set of steps at the base of the mount.
Excited, we cross the threshold to a well-trodden wood. Lover-carved tree boles. Dirt bike ruts. Spongy mushrooms or jack-in-the pulpit or doll eye plants draw our eye. Somewhere off the spider grid of dusty trail, we pass an enormous grapevine swing, then a grove of ancient mountain laurel, and finally, the hickories.
Strewn on the slope there, what seemed like impossible riches. Vague memories of stout trees with wide canopies, perfectly formed. But below them, on the ground, the reason for our journey. We stuff the best ones, filling our Kroger bags and begin the journey down and homeward, heavy laden with hickory nuts.
Two my third grade eyes, my teacher had something of the aspect of an old country school marm, with an olive green upright piano in the corner of her classroom, upon which every morning she pounded out "My Country tis of Thee."
She'd then have us take out a single sheet of ruled theme paper, and fold it in two, three, or four columns, depending on the day's lesson. We were then to write ARITHMETIC ("A Rat In Tom's House Might Eat the Ice Cream") across the top, in our best block letters.
The first week of third grade, she led us out to a tiny swale in the front yard of our newish buff-colored brick school, and had us gather walnuts from a twin set of trees that grew there where the avenue swerved and then led down to the great falls at High Bridge Glen.
Dim memories of a certain reverie when she spoke of these trees, a certain hush and awe that she shared with other older relatives of mine, when they spoke of walnut trees. Impossibly slow growing. Incredible timber value. The strength, the exquisite grain of its heartwood.
Tales of old dingy furniture possessing magic beneath cracked layers of ill considered paint. Tales of widows swindled by unscrupulous lumbermen, felling ancient sentinel dooryard trees and offering but a fraction of their worth.
The gathering of walnuts on the schoolyard the first week of third grade was not part of any lesson plan that I recall. We weren't studying ecology, or native trees of Ohio, or botany. We simply gathered walnuts because Mrs. Reynolds knew that they were there, and wanted us to, as well.
For an old country woman, it wouldn't do for a thing of value and potential nourishment to moulder on the schoolhouse lawn, or be ground and flung by mower blade.She taught us that beneath their acrid tangy outer husks, an acid green with stiff quills of hair, you would find the sweet oily kernels. Ripping them open, we'd feel a tinge on our hands, pungent black sap mildly burning and staining our skin.
She warned us not to keep them too long in our brown paper sacks, they might rot and be eaten by worms.
This September, standing next to an old hedgerow, a walnut tree I had never noticed plunked her fruit to the ground. Suddenly, that bracing astringent aroma, and with it, a flush of schoolhouse memories.
As one acid green tennis ball after another fell to the ground, from branches decked in frond-like serrated leaves just beginning to turn gold, I was taken back to a time when I knew where the sweetgums stood, and the horse chestnuts, and the myriad oak trees with their various acorns.
All of these treasures dropping from the sky, there for the plucking, if you were lucky enough to know certain older people, who knew where the good trees stood.
Sunday, November 11, 2012
Elegy for a Swan
Of a September sunrise, banks of lespedeza thunbergii drip bowers of pink pea blossoms over still water. A pair of white mute swans and their brood of adopted ducklings slumber on the lake shore, head under wing.
Four great blue heron ring the shore, perched equidistant on spindly leg. The moment I arrive, they take off in simultaneous prehistoric flight, rising on teradactyl wing into the misty vapor burning off toward the sun.
September's fleeting perfection. These goldenrod days.
But as the poet observed, nothing gold can stay.
This first day of October, our big male mute swan glides the lake slowly, emitting a plaintive wail.
The old folklore has it that the mute swan, Cygnus olor is silent its entire life, until at death it emits just one exquisite song: the distilled essence of a placid regal life.
I know nothing of this folkloric final song, but the Cygnus olor I have come to know are not mute. This spring, for example, our female swan honked plaintively, mourning shattered eggs she lovingly tended on her floating twiggy throne.
This first day of October, it is Giuseppe, our fierce male, who glides the lake emitting the saddest possible song.
This weekend his lifelong mate Gina dipped her long graceful neck below water for the last time.
Her buoyant corpse greets us this first October morning. Her mate for life circles the lake mournfully. Together, as a pair, each ensuing season they hone their skill, ferociously guarding their territory, warding off predators, defending their eggs in tandem.
Now she rests on these old Canton acres. We buried her beneath an arborvitae tree.
It seems wrong, somehow, she, a creature of grace and of water, moored to this pebbly ground.
The old timers say, the sudden arrival of a wild swan on your lake brings incredible luck.
And so this spring began, on this very pond. A perfect crystal morning. A great swooping of white wings. And then, suddenly, placidly gliding on the water, a new young male swan, a feisty cob, in the center of the lake.
Displays of strength ensue, as our old male swan with a bum foot fends off a potential rival. His pen swimming prettily, weighing her options.
Onto the ground the rival cobs toddle, an awkward charge through vineyard rows.
And suddenly of a bright spring morning, the intruder swan is gone, as quickly as he arrived, as if a phantasm, as if a fever dream.
Their idyl restored, our resident pair glide the lake once more in tandem: circles, pirouettes, a mirror reflection of elegant necks joined as a heart.
The tender chivalry of these blinding white birds, he placing bits of scratch feed below water for her to gracefully retrieve. She so gentle in the tending of her nest, a regal throne on which she enshrined herself for many lean months, on brittle eggs that never hatch, reaching to scrape sustenance from those low branches her long neck could reach.
The mutability of the swan.
Good fortune and the arrival of luck in spring.
Death and lament in autumn.
I know nothing of the fabled swan song, the mythic melody that arrives only just before the moment of death.
But this I know, these swans are not mute.
Twice this year I heard swans cry.
She, in April, over shattered eggs she lovingly tended.
He, in October, in lament for his mate, probably weakened, tending her eggs far too long after they should have hatched.
And so autumn ends in Canton, after a perfect golden September, a perfect sunrise moment that of course cannot stay.
Wednesday, August 1, 2012
Guy Walks In To A Bar: Shine On, Cuyahoga Falls
A guy walks in to a bar on the Front Street of my old hometown.
Atop his head, perched askew, something that looks like an English barrister's wig. Slung over each shoulder, a canvas Akron Beacon Journal newspaper carrier bag. Each bag is stuffed full of plush animals.
Guy in an English barrister's wig inquires about a pay phone.
Discussion ensues: Used to be one at the Sparkle Market. Maybe Taylor Library? Used to be one at the Sohio station but that's torn down now.
Several cellular devices are proffered.
Guy in an English barrister's wig exits bar.
You know that guy?
Nah. Thought you did.
Nope.
Wonder what was up with the paperboy bags?
And then discussion returns to the Indians' abysmal summer.
Not a word about the barrister's wig. Or the stuffed animals. Or the anachronistic request for a payphone.
The other day, against form, I entered a debate on one of those interweb local news sites. The kind where people leave comments, spouting from cyber seclusion with the caps lock on.
Some recent local event had folks blathering about my old hometown. Generalizations: this was a retrograde place. Full of close-minded, ignorant, intolerant types.
I mentioned that although I rarely visit these interweb forums, and had only briefly skimmed the electronic rants that had folks atwitter, my experience out and about in this town where the river twists and drops extravagantly had always been that this is a place with a rather high incidence of, and tolerance for, eccentricity.
In fact, to me, it's the sort of place that almost seems to celebrate it.
This is a town where the beloved Grand Marshal of our 175th Anniversary parade was an octogenerian in a gold lame´ jumpsuit who tap danced part of the way down Broad Boulevard.
This is the kind of place, where, two nights after encountering the guy in an English barrister wig, in the very same block, in the middle of a busy downtown festival, a man in a filthy plush chicken suit plays the accordion. A few polite quarters are tossed in his case. Otherwise, nary an eyebrow is raised.
This is a city where generations of children recited Christmas wishes to a giant, angry, armless snowman, with flashing red eyes.
This is a city loomed over by a giant concrete Tower To Nowhere, unfinished for decades, perched behind a round Cathedral of Tomorrow, just blocks from a circular windowless office building, which was next to the junior high school, and shrouded with sand-cast concrete sculptures of naked ladies dancing.
In short, this is the sort of town that ends up giving the world DEVO.
I think our penchant to accept eccentricity, to think nothing of a guy walking in to a bar on a fine summer evening with a barrister's wig askew atop his head, has something to do with this being the kind of place where we've always kept close quarters.
Back when mills burgeoned along the raging river, this was a boomtown where everyone clustered in about six city blocks on either side of the waterfall.
After that, vast farms stretched to the mire of Northampton, so if you lived on one of the town lots you were cheek to jowl with your neighbors.
Our next boom came after the War. Closely set, basement-less Heslop homes filled the farmland, and classes of 900 or more graduated from the only place that could hold everyone, the enormous Cathedral of Tomorrow with its cross of ever-changing Technicolor, suspended magically from the ceiling.
No matter what you thought of your neighbor, more likely than not a thin asphalt driveway is all that separated your castle from his.
So many eccentric neighbors.
There was Ernie, rumored to be a millionaire, who lived in a tall ramshackle house next to Laconi's Pizza (where, for some reason, pickled green peppers were listed as "mangos" on the menu.) His wife kept pigeons in hutches, and swept the dirt yard clean with a broom every day.
Ernie made his rounds religiously each week, pulling a wagon atop which he had constructed an oversize wooden box. People would set out for him newspapers, cardboard, anything metal. Ernie had a day he hit each street, and the night before, residents left their items for him on the devil strip.
Ernie's shoes never had laces, and he always stomped the heels flat. He was a big man, with gray whiskers, and pants hitched up to his chest and belted with rope. He had a distinctive shuffle, making his way down gravel and tar side streets bounded by deep ditches and towering silver maples lined up in rows along the devil strip.
Rival corner groceries hunkered on either corner of Grant and Meriline Streets, tended by cantankerous proprietresses. If Mrs. Patrick saw you so much as darken the door of Mrs. Jones's place across the corner, she would scold you and forbid you from buying anything from her for a week. (Even if the only reason you went to Mrs. Jones was because Mrs. Patrick was out of milk that day.)
In the same block, The Red Haired Lady and The Black Haired Lady lived in small cottages next door to each other, and hated each other's guts. Nevertheless, each night they met on the sidewalk and walked together, noisily arguing, until one peeled off to the Boulevard Tavern and one went next door to the Chestnut Beer Garden. (Each had been banned from the other bar.)
There was Kenny, who rode a bike with flag-bedecked handlebars in every parade. He had a special badge and uniform. We all knew he wasn't a real cop but if there was a fender bender he was often first on the scene, directing traffic until the real patrolmen arrived.
It comes from living in close proximity. You overlook th foibles of your neighbor. You sit on your porch, you hear Ernie's shuffle, and his wagon wheels churning over gravel. You wave a greeting and he grumbles a reply. You never have a conversation, but you break up your old screen door before you put it out on the devil strip, so it will better fit in his wagon.
These were days of walking to corner stores, of open windows, of mothers standing on back stoops and hollering kids in to dinner.
I see my octogenerian neighbors hanging house dresses on the line, sitting on the porch, tending their yard on a fine summer night. I know them by face if not by name. Other houses are buttoned up and silent, but for the drone of air conditioning units.
Do the battened down people have any idea what a sweet honey of a summer night it is, with the season's first crickets? They might be on the interweb, spouting about the horrible town they live in, and the awful people who are their neighbors, who they never talk to and rarely see.
But some folks venture out. A hipster, a World War II Vet, a big guy with extended earlobes and rods through his brow sit at a bar.
A guy in an English barrister's wig and newspaper boy bags full of push toys asks about a payphone.
Each of them proffers his celly.
My Eccentric hometown. Shine on, America. Shine on, Cuyahoga Falls.
Monday, June 4, 2012
When Swans Cry
She started gathering twings for it way back in February's Full Hunger Moon. Now, on the cusp of the Full Strawberry Moon, she or her mate Guiseppe never stray from their floating twiggy throne.
The geese and the wood ducks seem to deposit eggs willy nilly: on the lawn, at the base of a dead pine tree, next to a parked automobile. But there is something about this perch in the swampy part of the lake, and the elegant creatures who tend it so carefully, that seems almost regal.
Only in recent days has Gina ventured far from the nest, looking skinny and a little desperate, plunging her muddy neck into the mire in search of victuals. Her corpulent mate Guiseppe, fat and sassy from months of chasing intruder swans and Canada geese from his terrain, takes his shift on the eggs grudgingly, though once there, he seems strangely relaxed and content.
On this morning of the low hanging branches, Guiseppe is gliding in full open waters on the distant sunny side of the lake, while Gina is just a few yards from her throne, gathering twings for her daily mending.
With a stunning randomness that brings to mind the Zapruder film and the Single Bullet Theory, by some bizarre trajectory, a rock winged by the groundskeeper's string cutter slices through a thicket of raspberry brambles, sassafras saplings, and bittersweet tangles, and somehow hits one of those carefully tended eggs, dead on.
It shatters with a devastating ping, something like a lightbulb breaking.
From yards away, Gina unleashes a lament, something that sounds exactly like crying.
Silently I have watched her glide the lake for almost a year, with intelligent avian eyes. Usually furtive, during winter's full hunger moon she seeks me out, and I begin feeding her daily, although keeping a distance, remembering always that she is a wild animal and nobody's pet, and that it is dangerous to teach a wild animal to trust a nefarious humanoid.
So it is all the more poignant to hear this mute bird emit her wail.
She power strokes to her ruined throne, and retrieves a shard of the shattered egg.
She swims it some distance from the nest and meticulously washes it, dipping it in and out of the still cool water.
Wailing still, she returns to the throne for another shard and then another, continuing the meticulous ritual until all the bits are cleansed.
Of course it is all too easy to ascribe human emotions and intentions to charismatic mega fauna, such as this pair of mute swans. I am sure there is a perfectly reasonable evolutionary explanation.
Her call is not crying, but a distress signal to her fiercely territorial mate, alerting him that an unknown predator is at large.
Her meticulous cleansing is not sorrow, but cleansing any scent that might draw the weasels and racoons and possoms who lurk in these woods, and regularly nab the less fiercely tended duck and goose eggs.
And surely the brittle shatter, and the length at which the egg had been tended but had not hatched, indicates that it was most likely not viable, a thin shelled imperfect egg from a pair of alien birds that have no business mating in Canton, Ohio.
But still on this warm sunny morning there is part of me that knows that I heard a swan cry this morning, and that something like tears must have been shed from those intelligent avian eyes.























